.a dream i never had until it died. (II)

A dream I never had until it died…

As the song lyrics go: “All the world is all I am, the black of the blackest ocean. Never was one for a prissy girl.”

I was raised in a stereotypically masculine way and have never considered myself a very ‘girly girl’. One of my profs even recently said “You’re one of the boys, just that you have an innie instead of an outie.” My ambitions had always gone beyond the kitchen stove and baby diapers. But recently, I was told that I cannot have babies. And, of course, since then all I can do is think of babies, babies, babies, a house and a husband, and babies. That I no longer have the option to ever conceive a mini-me hurt me far more than I had anticipated and I found myself melancholically dreaming of a life I had never envisioned a real goal: marriage and kids…

And of course I also feel as though I've completely failed as a female...

(A huge thank you to Miss Briana Diamond for helping me! )



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